| new livejournal! |
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Hi you guys, I have changed my livejournal. It is now twinkle__winkle (thats 2 underscores) please add this new name to your friend's lists as soon as possible. Thanks you guys.
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| there are places I remeber |
[11 Dec 2004|02:37pm] |
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Sigh, I love getting the NMH Neswire thing or whatever it is called. It makes me so happy to look at how NMH is evolving, I just love that place. I would love to go back for a summer/semester after graduation and do something creative writing related. Maybe I if I called it an "internship" I could get away with it or something, thats a thought hmmmm.... Ok I have to run its finals time, you know the drill.
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[13 Nov 2004|04:38pm] |
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So I really need to do some work, but I just had to write and get this off of my chest. I would have written it in my actual journal, but I feel as though this is faster. The last week has been a lot better for several reasons, my happy pills, and I have been doing more school work and my relationships with people have been improving which is great, but at the same time I am tired of trying with a lot of people.
Some people have been great in the past week namely Kate and Jade and Misty, all of whom actively took some interest in seeking me out and asking how I was doing and making themselves availiable if I needed anything, and I really appreciate that.
I have been trying to really reach out to people and show them that I want to hang out with them, but I am getting really tired of that. Like Gabe, I wanted to go out and do something fun with him this weekend, turns out that I have too much work to go out, but I am tired of trying, I am tired of calling people who dont call me. Granted they may be really nice but how much should I have to do. Should I really have to give so much in order to feel apart of someones community.
Or take Emily, I thought we had a break through earlier this week but I dont know. Granted sometimes I dont call her, but then I feel as though she doesnt call either. I am trying to reach out because I dont like feeling alone at school, but if she does, or if she is ok with her life being the way it is, then how can I work with that? It is just really frustrating, because on the one hand you feel like things are getting better, but then are they really?
Or back to Emily, today we were supposed to go and study at Bongo Java, and it was a loose engagement, I was goig to have to go later in the afternoon if I went at all, but today when I was asked her if we were still on for Bongo Java she said she had to work on a group project, but really she was hanging out with a friend until 7 and then working on the group project. Like I am tired of this bullshit, I am tired of reaching out to pple, who admit that they need more friends and relationships but then dont make any effort what so ever. Am I am tired of not doing anything because I dont have any friends and anyone to do things with. I am tired of ordering food by myself and eating it in my room, or not going to parties because no one wants to go, or trying to make plans and invite pple to do things, but have no one call me. I am tired of being friendly, and thinking things are on the upswing, but still spending the entire weekend in my room by myself.
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[07 Nov 2004|12:51pm] |
You Are Sex On the Beach! |
When comes to drinking, you like it to go down smooth.
You really don't like the taste of alcohol - just its effect on you.
So, you're proud to get drunk on fruity, girly drinks.
Because once you're liquored up, the fun begins! |
Oh yeah!! Go me! I'm girly! But didn't we all know that already?...
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[16 Aug 2004|06:11pm] |
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Ok, I thought this was hilarious but I think you would have to be familiar with Atlanta to get it. I recently added some new interests to my info page including baked beans and coca-cola and I wanted to see what communities they had for coca-cola and the Emory community was listed, hahahaha, I'm sorry but if you have every visitied Emory you'll know that Coke donates a lot of money to the school so as a result there are Coke machines everywhere and you can't find Pepsi in a 10 mile radious of the campus. But to Emory's defense the whole city (if fact the South in general) has been brainwashed by Coke, most of us won't drink anything else. But still it's hilarious that it's on their interest list...sigh, well that's my story.
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[02 Aug 2004|07:11pm] |
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Ok, so this entry was originally a reply to Zoe’s entry, but then I realized that it was way too long.
ZOE! You had the most interesting weekend ever! First can I say that I really want to meet your dad. He told you that painting was worth more than 50 of you! HAHAHA, that’s love! Yeah for those of you who haven’t read Zoe’s entry, she was at some mansion in Maine (I don’t know, the trail of wealth got a little hard to follow) and there is a portrait of George Washington on the wall and her dad and its worth more than 50 Zoe’s muahhaah, that’s hilarious that your dad told you that, muhahaha! Ok, I am done. Muahaha. No quite, ok I’m done now.
And you (Zoe) met Clinton! Deep breath, you spoke to Clinton, and even better Clinton spoke to you. Because you are not black you will never know the extreme jealousy I feel right now. Seriously, black people believe that Clinton is the second Christ, we love him like we love our favorite uncle, and what’s more I am a PSCI major who watched all of the DNC. I mean really people, I would wait outside his Harlem office for hours if I thought I could see him. But anyway Zoe said there was some annoying girl who went to Princeton and definitely wouldn’t let you forget it and the annoying Princeton girl sounds like Mackenzie Russell who finds ways to tell you she is going to Princeton even when your not talking to her - like her away message will say "F*%k Princeton, I'm going to Devry" or "not here - mrussel@princeton.edu" grrrrrr I CANT STAND HER!
Oh and the alternate universe where everyone went to boarding must have been cool, but as much as I love NMH, don't get me wrong, I might have been a smidge embarrassed. Which reminds me of a story at Vandy. So I don’t know if any of you remember Demetrius (Tanishia is rolling on the floor already), Keefa you should, and Zoe you should too, and Kristin of course you know him, and you too Emily! Ok anyway, Demetrious is a kid who went to Vanderbilt, he just graduated and senior year I would look at the Vandy website and there was this picture of Demetrius and we has cheesing madddddd hard. Tanishia and I always thought it was funny and so we made a plan to meet Demetrius although I never really thought I would. But I did! And we actually got to know each other, he was an Alpha and we had a class together, plus he went to Taft and so we used to talk about boarding school.
Ok so at lunch one day, why does he get into this story about a basketball game at NMH, he said he went to the bathroom during half time because he really had to take a dump – yes, the boy said dump with all these other people around at lunch! And then he goes on about how NMH didn’t have any doors on the stalls! I was too embarrassed, I was like you are lying, but I was laughing, and he was saying NMH was wack, so to get the negative attention off of NMH, I changed the subject and started talking about how wack Cushing was. Hahaha, it was so sad, I miss Demtrius now, sigh, wish y’all could have met him. Oh and another quick story! He has a really small head, and one time he picked up a piece of fried chicken and everyone one was crackin’ saying it was bigger than it head, and it was….sigh, good times, good times.
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| Hello |
[25 Jul 2004|05:08pm] |
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Guess I am the first person to post a messge in this community. Everyone enjoy!
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| random quiz |
[25 Jul 2004|02:55am] |
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So I am up late talking to Kristin and she sent me this quiz - now discuss!
BEAUTIFUL ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and this one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt
your heart she/he will be the most happy person
in the world. You need someone who shoes you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She/He shall
know that you could easily get another
girl/boyfriend but you wont as long as you
love him. when she/he hurts you you will hurt
him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget him
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla
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[23 Jul 2004|04:27pm] |
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I am bored and no one evry updates thier LJ so I dont have much incentive to sign on anymore. Is this a sign of things to come? Will no one ever update their LJ we all go back to school? Right now I am at my brother's house in Conyers. We are supposed to be hanging out today, except we have to do something cheap, so I suggested going out for ice cream. So I drove all the way out here (it is close to a 30 minute drive, atlhough, surprisingly it does not use much gas) missing my soap opera(Guiding Light, and everyone knows all the good stuff happens of Friday!) and when I get here he is watching tapes of his basketball team, tapes he has seen a hundred times! I want some ice cream! Well my brother is was the 2003-2004 Coah of the Year, like for the entire state , so its a really big deal and he takes his team really seriously, but man, I want some ice cream!
And now for a ♠ Bite of Insight ♠ from Jessica
So I ws talking to my mom about some things the other day, mainly about people, Vandy people, and how some of the ones I knew were, well, not up to par. And my mom said that things started getting really weird around these people after Kate visited and how she and my dad knew it would happen. Her theory - basically that these folks saw what kinds of friends I have and the type of people that I associate myself with (intelligent, witty people) and they became intimidated. I agree, so this next bit is for Kate.
♥ Kate! I am so glad that you came to visit me at school and I know that some of the people you meet were not impressive, and I want you to know that I never thought they were either. They were friends out of convience and to be honest, I never really thought they were that bright. This is not refering to ALL of my Vandy friends of course, but I believe you know or can guess the ones that I am refering to. I just dont want you to think I am the kind of person that attracts shallow, dense friends. Thanks again Kate! ♥
I must go now, to convence my bro to get off the couch and take me to Brusters.
* oh and in reference to my current mood I used "hungry" because they didn't have a "wants ice cream" face, although if they did, I'm sure Tanishia would use it everytime she posted a message.
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[10 Jul 2004|11:47pm] |
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So does this really mean that no one is reading my entries! That really hurts my feelings, except none of you will ever know because you don't read my livejournal! Some friends I have - I had planned on writing something deep about my present situation, but I figure why bother, I would have better luck talking to George, my CAT!
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| Ou est Heather? |
[01 Jul 2004|12:56am] |
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I wish Heather were around so I could discuss the intracies of Rent. Like how the Mimi on the soudtrack sounds a little weird and how the Mimi that I saw this year sounded great, yet was true to the music, she just didn't sound like a 12 year old or whatever Mimi's voice sounds like. Or like how Roger and Mark and Joanne all sound exactly the same, from cast to cast, or how I think the Collins who is recorded on the soundtrack sounds a little more like Ray's brother on "Everybody Loves Raymond" that the Collins I saw did. Or why the original Angel was hispanic and now he is black but has a light complexion, or how is it that Roger can go from short to long hair and Maureen can go from brunete to blonde, but every Mimi looks the same, or why Scary-Spice is going to be the next Mimi. Sigh, ou est Heather?
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| RENT! |
[03 Jun 2004|12:59am] |
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I SAW RENT TONIGHT, OR RATHER LAST NIGHT AS IT IS NOT TOMORROW, AND I WAS AMAZING!
There was this one particular moving conversation between Mark and Roger (they are roommates for those who are unfamiliar with the musical) where Mark is like - you have to love Mimi (Mimi has AIDS and uses drugs and Mark as well as two of their other good friends Collins and Angel are HIV+) because she doesn't have much time, so don’t run away, and Roger is like - whatever, you just live your life through a camera and you are detached. Then Mark is like - I have to be because everyone around me will die. And then Roger replies - so sorry, sarcastically.
And I thought, how sad to know that you will watch all of your closest friends die, and then as a friend Roger can't empathize because how can you feel sorry for someone who will outlive you, I mean at least he has life.
Wow, it was powerful.
RENT was so good, and I am glad I saw it with my mom, and we had great seats!
We were in row J!!!!
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[31 May 2004|04:28am] |
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You know, I am going to make it a point to get through all of these expression faces. So here's one just for the heck of it.
(and yet, its oddly appropiate)
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| F*@^% Rock the Vote?!? |
[31 May 2004|04:25am] |
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So ok I was screwed over by Rock the Vote and now I am over that and trying to figure out just what I am going to do with the Vanderbilt Chapter of RTV or whatever. I am really exasperated for a couple of reasons: One, I feel as though it is a really elitist notion to focus so heavily on voter registration at colleges when we should really be focusing our attention elsewhere in the Nashville community, and Two, LEAD (Leader Engaged for an Active Democracy, used to be VanderVotes and I am actually on the exec. board) is a lot more effective at that kind of thing because they have volunteers, money, and resources. So I want to work in the community, but sorry, that position has already been filled by the Belmont Bitch , ashley, and campus registration, which is what RTV suggests I do, is already taken care of by other groups. So what the F*@^% am I supposed to be doing!?! Well that is what I am trying to figure out.
Option # 1: I could take the organization in a completely new direction, where I can realize all of the visions that I have that are being ignored by LEAD right now.
Problem # 1: “There’s just meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, one is the only number” (Jill Scott reference there) I am working alone and I just can’t pull of a lot of these things successfully without some kind of help from committed individuals.
Option # 2: F*@^% RTV and focus more on my other activities, like LEAD and Orbis (which YOU should be reading! And you can read it online @ http://www.vanderbiltorbis.com/ READ ORBIS!, sorry for the shameless plug)
Problem #2: RTV is a registered organization and people expect me to be involved with it. In fact a certain sorority (which shall remain nameless) knows that I am heavily involved with it and so do LEAD members and everyone else, so how will it look if I accept defeat (or whatever) and drop it????
I just don’t know what to do (sad face). Oh won’t someone leave me advice (sad face)?
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| Sooo fulll.... |
[30 May 2004|06:50pm] |
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I am so full. I went to my favorite restaurant, Mick's today with my aunt and mom. The food and conversation were both good and I had a completely vegetarian meal, which is good because I have been eating a lot of fish and seafood lately, which is fine and all, but I really want to eat fish a lot less frequently, or else, what is the point of giving up poultry, pork, and beef if I just replace it all with fish? Well I guess fish is healthier than all of the above, but you get the point. Anyway, we talked about the Atkins Diet I and personally just think it's an excuse for Americans to be gross. Just the other day I was watching a Centrium commercial, now they have a new vitamin to supplement the Atkins Diet, and in the commercial there was a little family and they ate a veggie kabob and then what looked like a 20 ounce steak! Um no! On what kind of diet can you eat a 20 ounce steak? I mean that just sounds wrong. Anyway, since I'm doing my whole meat-free thing (I can't call myself a vegetarian because I eat fish and seafood) I can't do the Atkins Diet because then I would starve.
And what is with all the new "low carb" foods. Like the low carb ice tea...since when did ice tea have carbs! Or low carb cereal...that’s like low liquid water, I mean really come on! Its got to stop some where.
Speaking of carbs...(and this one is gonna take a while to get to the point so bear with me)
For my internship I had to call all of these Congressional candidates, one is this guy named Sid Cottingham who insisted on taking down my email address and now sends me all kinds of emails. The funny part is he's not in my district so I couldn't vote for him even if I wanted to. Anyway, he sent me an email called "The NO CARB Diet" and it's like : NO CARBS!
No Cheney
No Ashcroft
No Rumsfield
No Bush
and surely no Rice
I thought it was funny, but I wish he would stop sending me emails.
Now I think I'm gonna crawl up in a corner to digest before my mom makes me go to Kroger with her.
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